Ahhh, weight loss continued...

One thing I have learned from my wonderful therapist (oh by the way, I don't think that many people think that they can try out a lot of therapists. Personally I tried about 8 therapists and 5 psychiatrists before I found ones I really liked and eventually trusted — I sat silently during my first 6 months of therapy sessions just to gain trust because damn it the first thing you shouldn't say to a bipolar during a dip is "Do you want to kill yourself? Why do you want to kill yourself?)

Okay, tangent over, back to my point. One thing I have learned is that ADDers are pushed by success. We will continue something if we form a healthy rut, and succeed by using it. This is generally because we had low self-esteem in our formative years — you're lazy, you're stupid, why can't you jut do it like everyone else, etc..

So I really hope that between my healthier eating, minimal excercise, and lack of alcohol, I will noticeably lose weight at a healthy rate.

So here it is, I am being more open than most women about my weight (eek), because being public about weight loss generally makes you stick to your plan better...

I am 5'3" and now 151 lbs. That makes me just a bit above the healthy weight and range of bmi. The healthy weight range for someone my height is somewhere in between 104 and 140 lbs. My bmi is roughly 27 and it should be between 18 - 25.

Though I was living so unhealthy (and overusing/misusing my ritalin or whatever meds I ws on at the time) I was happiest at my weight of 120ish during my freshman year of university. And I think that will set a goal of about that weight. I hope to lose it by the reasonable date of July 30th.

Though this blog is about ADD I think that I will add a bit of information about my success, specifically how taking my meds while getting healthier affects my symptoms.

And by the way, from experience I have learned that yoga is really good for depression (if you can get out of bed) and especially ADD. I like vinyasa yoga the best because you flow from pose to pose, it doesn't really matter how well you are doing the poses (as long as you do it accurately enough to not injure yourself), and it gives you time to think and reflect while still being distracted by the poses. And if it is a good class it is completely judgmental free because everyone is purely focusing on themselves and their thoughts. I would recommend staying away from bikram because they pump up the heat and every pose is done exactly in the same order every time so it doesn't really condone personal reflection and calmness. I would also stay away from classes at gyms, the teachers are generally not trained as yoga teachers and the general mood seems to be more about how skinny you can get rather than how healthy — body AND mind — you can get. Though that is one humble personal opinion. And if you go often enough (2-4 times per week?) it becomes — ta da! — a healthy rut.

So that's my two cents...and to the few readers I have, really do let me know if you think that documenting my turn toward healthiness is detracting from the personal rants and confessions of living with ADD and you think I shouldn't talk about it anymore.

Good luck with your resolutions. Try to set realistic goals, and most importantly, I hope you have an infinitely wonderful year!